Listening to: The Baron
Maybe this is fear. Not of what others will think of course, but of what I will think. As far as I can tell, I hate everyone. I'll have to learn to keep my mouth shut. Always. School begins tomorrow. There will be stares. But I am used to that, or rather He is used to that. Emilio. The name is like poison on my tongue. But there is nothing I can do. I am a puppet under his control. Blind and obedient. I have lost my ability to sense things. To know the future. To read people's feelings. I am Alone in a dark room with no one to pull me out. Perhaps that is not all entirely true. There are those who would, but the question is do they have the ability to pull me out? I talked to Frankie. He said something that has really got me thinking. He said "I have no doubt that you would take me in." But he doesn't want to be a bother. I told him he would never be a bother it would be impossible. He does not believe me. But then again I'm a liar. But not to him never to him. And not to Lucius either. Out of the billions of people on this earth, I only trust two. Two. There was a question that I had heard someone speak. I remember it now. If you could live on an Island where you would be immortal, and you could take your female best friend, your male best friend, and the one you love the most, who would they be. I would take Frankie and Lucius without a doubt. The third person I would not take, because women are lairs and cheats. Thrice someone I have loved has been taken away from me by a female best friend. Never again. I thrive upon the company a males, even Alikee has left and in her place the man Emilio sits. The Hate is growing stronger. I am blinded and weak. I need help but none shall come. It would be easier just to end myself, but what would become of the ones I love?